OK well I realized how much it sucks to not have any family at all near me. I totally forgot about Easter being this weekend, when I did remember, all I could think about was all the years my mom colored Easter eggs with me. The years I was a metal head and all the eggs I painted had to do with heavy metal, a few years later I grew out of that and it was all about the punk/goth scene, yeah on Easter I painted eggs black, or with anarchy signs, vampires, demons, the words "Mother is the name of god, spoken from the lips of children" I even did a whole cemetery scene on one. She laughed and thought it was great, I miss her so much. I took too much for granted.
I am still working on getting transferred to LA, but its a pain in the ass. Talk to this person then... wait, then talk to this person... then wait. Im getting very frustrated.
I talked to my Aunt in Japan the other day. It blew me away, she offered me a place to live closer to family. Even offered to pay for me to move to Japan. I am seriously considering it, If this LA thing doesn't come through for me I may very well be better off moving to Japan and starting a new life there. I dont know though, I love Cali, and cant thing of anywhere else I would rather be, but the opportunity to move to Japan doesn't come very often. Especially with someone else offering to pay for the move, offering a place to live, and telling me if I help out with the family business I wouldnt have to really work. So now the hard part is deciding if I want to just take the offer, or to see if I can make it here by myself. I really dont know.